Confessions of an overweight SAHM


The reality of my weight has been in my face for sometime now, but I have chose to ignor this all my life. This past weekend, I have really thought about doing something about it. Today was my first "baby step" in going the right direction. I am very proud of myself.

I have always been a big girl. Even in high school. You know how everyone jokes that most of the cliques have their "fat" friend. Well that was me. No dates, dances, football games, cheerleading & my friends were fat too. I was the bubbly one. You know the one who tells the jokes and seems happy all the time.

Fastforward to my 20's I got with the wrong guy...blah blah long story short I had a baby and the weight never came off.

Now I am 34 and have been home with my kids since 2002 I have met the right guy (who BTW is my cheerleader and thinks I am beautiful no matter what), and somehow I have managed to gain 40lbs. But see this is on top of the heavy weight I was already carrying. This is really the time I need to focus on myself and getting healthy for my children. I want to see them graduate, get married and have children. I wont be here if I dont take this stand now.

I got the motivation and woke up this morning and said I am not eating all that junk today. I started drinking water and didnt snack all day. I went to the grocery store and bought things that were fat free and low in calorie. And right now as I sit here I am happy. I am happy that I made it this first day. I have a long road ahead of me, but I am setting small goals for myself. 10lbs this month, maybe 15 next. I want to eat to live not live to eat (Dr.Phil said that & I love it).

One of my Favorite Songs


"Jesus Take The Wheel"
Carrie Underwood

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It's been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the wayI've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus take the wheelOh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

The link that I am posting has her video for this song. It is beautiful.

http://www.cmt.com/artists/az/underwood__carrie/artist.jhtml

ChocoMadness



My son Adam is the most delicious looking baby in all of the world.

It amazes me what one simple little chocolate cookie can do to make him happy. Dont you just wish it was that easy for everyone?!

So sweet & innocent. Amazing I tell you, just utterly amazing!

Merry Christmas!

I thought I would share some holiday pictures with you of my family! I hope everyones Christmas was truly blessed.



Susan is loving her new Aeropostale Coat =)


Elias loves his Geo tracks and his front loader



Adam & His Pooh Car

A Blubbering Mess


Being a mom of a teenager is the hardest job, I think! It may exceed those of a newborn. My daughter who is 14, has the attitude of Cruella Deville & the temper of an alligator. She is always in the middle of some drama with her friends, that just makes the world stop until it is solved, she has to have the latest fashions; this week it it preppy clothes from Aeropostale; last week it was rock.

She had a Christmas concert she had to go to and the whole time I am hearing all this complaining about pantyhose and heels & why do I have to tuck my shirt in....blah blah....I actually thought I would kill her. It is so frustrating to try to explain to her why she should look nice and not bummy or something that just stepped out of Snoop Dog's Camp. It is Christmas I said and finished with because I said so!

I get her there (in one piece, seriously thinking of still killing her at this point) and she walks in and leaves me. Go figure?!??! I decided to take my 3 year old with me (someone should have shot me for even thinking this). He was good and quiet for the most part, except when the choir would finish a song, he would say (loudly) are they done yet? is my sissy next?! I told him no not yet one more song, he was crushed & would say OH Man! At this point I am ready for Susan to play so I can get the heck out of there.

The violin orcastra finally is playing & I just sit and listen. I felt like the Grinch, you the know part where his heart grows at the end of the story. Elias is even quiet. It is the most beautiful music that I think she has played since she has started. I am sitting there with people on either side of me and I am crying. I mean tears a rolling down my face. I am so proud of my baby! But you know if she saw me or even knew I was like that she would have sucked her teeth and so awww Mom stop it my friends can see you! I would not even have gotten mad =)

Listen

Christmas Pictures







Yesterday I realized what the people at the photo studios go through! WOW! You would never think trying to get a 8 month old baby to sit still and smile for 5 secs would be hard!!! Well I was wrong...LOL! It took me about 2 hours working with my son, to even get a couple of great pics. There was the sliding down, leaning over, trying to eat the hat, trying to reach over and eat the camera, slobber & not to mention the crying! But all in all it was hilarious! I had a wonderful time inspite of all the trouble. Now, the choice of which picture....I think I have narrowed it down to 2 pictures. One of these will be an 8x10 for grandma! Isn't he a cutie!?!?!?!

It feels & looks a lot like Christmas!

I got into the Christmas spirit today! YAY! I am feeling a lot better. I think the snow gave me the little extra boost I needed! I love watching the snow fall. It the most peaceful thing I have ever watch (next to a baby sleeping). Each flake is different from the last, so delicate and fragil. It is amazing how such very tiny flakes can cover the ground in such a way. As I sit here and write I look out of the window and the snow is sitll steadly falling and now the flakes are big and fluffy. WOW! It is amazing.

I put my tree up ( not the big one this year). It is a little 4 ft tree, it looks nice. This is Adam's first Chirstmas and snow! I cant wait to show him both tomorrow and take some pictures. I will also be shopping a little this week! I may even listen to Christmas carols tomorrow....:)